(First off this might come off as bit of contradictory post but, stay me and comment if you’d like)

I woke up this morning thinking some stuff about people and my general outlook on a lot of stuff (likely prompted by listening to the first 3 hours of Malcolm Gladwells “Outliers” before bed. A bit deterministic though.) and thought posting this here would be the best of places.

Any way I had dream about serendipitously meeting a minor celebrity from most comedy based video game show podcast (The bleeding heart of said group) co-star now current host though less popular (even I rarely listen nowadays). We were after like a meeting or something in the traditionally professional sphere. Afterwards I made same chitchat with the a woman (a professional ethnic looking woman (Spanish/South East Asian/Italian/Greek adajecent) next to me who start to talk vapiditly and incessantly. Until tried to get in a word edge wise about the podcaster sitting next to her. Who seemed to over hear and looked a bit shy/humble about it. I was happy/shy as well meeting someone else you only hear in the flesh. But, the woman seemed hostile/disintested about the whole situation. Like the wind in her sails just stopped and seemed to immediately want to bail but, thought it would be rude.

After that I woke up before deciding to post this I began to think about how a lot of the times people just underservely want or demand your attention but, will not make any iota of effort to respricate. Or at least ask for questions around the subject of interest. To you know like be let in on the conversation in some way instead of just seething like a dog with a stolen bone. All in all thinking about this I definitely think this line of thought was sparked by the chapter of the aforementioned book about the problem of genius. Which more about the Mattew Principle (he has stuff will get more stuff and he who has little will have it taken) and effectively communicating for yourself, your needs, and for others that are usually shaped by how we were raised may help or hinder you despite whatever inherent abilities you have.

All this to say that a lot if time in the world today there just seem to a over abundance of selfishness. And it’s usually about things that don’t actually matter empty conversation, empty politics, empty care, empty calories. Only the need of the hungry ghost.

Like a lot of time in my life I got out a majority problems or made connections by simply paying attention and asking simple questions. But, it seems to be a bridge to far for some to actually observe the world they in.

If you read all this like mentioned above feel free to comment and thanks.